Lifting Burdens

One of my favorite YouTube church videos is called "Lifting Burdens." No matter what I am going through. This video has so much inspiration. I think I tear up every time I listen to it. Elder Holland says "Christ is everything to us and we are to abide in him permanently, unyielding, steadfastly forever.  For the fruit of the gospel to blossom and bless our lives, we must be permanently attached to him." I like that a lot because we should literally picture him next to us everyday/all day watching over us and protecting us. It is such a good and peaceful feeling to have. Elder Bednar later states, "We can be spiritually prepared and cleansed from sin, immersed in and saturated with his gospel. And purified and sealed by the holy spirit of promise. Even born again." I love that because it talks about god making a promise to us that we can wash our sins and mistakes away and basically be reborn and as long as we have faith, love and forgive ourselves for our mistakes, we can come unto Christ and be "reborn." I love the gospel so much and it brings so much happiness into my life.

profound letter.

As people may know.. I am obsessed with the movie and the book Eat Pray Love cause it has helped me through a lot of sadness and pain that I have gone through in the past. There is a scene in the movie where she is in Italy and she gets inspired to write a letter to the guy she was dating in New York before she leaves the country. This letter is so brilliantly written and I always find myself relating to it in different ways.

Dear David,

We haven't had any communication in a while, and it's given me time I needed to think. Remember when you said we should live with each other and be unhappy so we could be happy?

Consider it a testimony to how much I love you that I spent so long pouring myself into that offer, trying to make it work. But a friend took me to the most amazing place the other day its called, The Augustium. Octavian Augustus built it to house his remains. When the Barbarians came they trashed it along with everything else. The Great Augustus Rome's first true great emperor. How could he have imagined that Rome, the whole world as far as he was concerned, one day would be in ruins. It's one of the quietest and loneliest places in Rome. The city has grown up around it over centuries. Feels like a precious wound, Like a heartbreak you won't let go of cause it hurts too good.

We all want things to stay the same David. Settle for living in misery because were afraid of change. Of things crumbling to ruins. then i looked around in this place at the chaos its endured. The way its been adapted, burned, pillaged, and found a way to build itself back up again...and i was reassured. Maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, It's just the world that is. And the only real trap is getting attached to any of it. ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation. Even in this eternal city. The Augustium showed me that we must always be prepared for endless waves of transformation.

Both of us deserve better than staying together because we're afraid we'll be destroyed if we don't.